Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Lent Update

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Every time a holiday come around, I have visions of beautiful, peaceful, gratifying family time, complete with devotions and sweet little boy moments.  I imagine candlelight, cuddles, and the palpable presence of the Holy Spirit in our home.

These visions last about one second.  Then Big Boy pushes Twin B; Twin B yells at Big Boy, giving him fair warning before he tackles; Twin A wanders around aimlessly, then breaks down when Hubby orders him to sit down.  All the while I sit, open Bible, fighting tears.  And yet--

the kingdom of God belongs to such as these...

I vow to let go of perfection,  then kill myself with projects.  I work like crazy trying to make a home, and forget to stop and BE a home.  I snap at the boys, my husband, and the cat, annoyed that anyone would dare to interrupt my precious plans and time.  I fail.

healthy people don't need a doctor--sick people do...

I'm a failure.
A harlot.
A glutton.
A liar.
A thief.
A rebel.
A sinner {the chief}.

then Jesus turned to the twelve and asked, "are you also going to leave?"  simon peter replied, "Lord, to whom would we go?  you have the words of eternal life."
  
My dear Lord, I depend wholly upon thee, wean me from all other dependences.  Thou art my all, thou dost overrule all and delight in me.  Thou are the foundation of goodness....(Valley of Vision)

Linking to Ann today.  

4 comments:

Lisa notes... said...

I smile reading your post. :-) Those visions of perfect holidays still try to fill my head too. Thankfully God uses us "sick" ones anyway.

Jessica Heights said...

What a wonderful Lenten post!

Jamie said...

I feel just exactly as you do. Thank you for your simple honesty and reminders of what is most important! :)

Craig said...

I'm a failure.
A harlot.
A glutton.
A liar.
A thief.
A rebel.
A sinner {the chief}.

I used to feel uncomfortable describing myself in such terms - on the one hand we run around pretending to be perfect - sinless - "good Christians" - on the other see how imperfect we are. But it always sounds a little rough - until I realize it's a comparison - yes compared to "the world" we aren't those things - we are "better" - "good" - but compared to the perfection of God - the only true measure for us - we are that lost, that "bad" - but then Grace.

Thank you for this. God bless and keep you and all of yours.

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