Lent Update

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Every time a holiday come around, I have visions of beautiful, peaceful, gratifying family time, complete with devotions and sweet little boy moments.  I imagine candlelight, cuddles, and the palpable presence of the Holy Spirit in our home.

These visions last about one second.  Then Big Boy pushes Twin B; Twin B yells at Big Boy, giving him fair warning before he tackles; Twin A wanders around aimlessly, then breaks down when Hubby orders him to sit down.  All the while I sit, open Bible, fighting tears.  And yet--

the kingdom of God belongs to such as these...

I vow to let go of perfection,  then kill myself with projects.  I work like crazy trying to make a home, and forget to stop and BE a home.  I snap at the boys, my husband, and the cat, annoyed that anyone would dare to interrupt my precious plans and time.  I fail.

healthy people don't need a doctor--sick people do...

I'm a failure.
A harlot.
A glutton.
A liar.
A thief.
A rebel.
A sinner {the chief}.

then Jesus turned to the twelve and asked, "are you also going to leave?"  simon peter replied, "Lord, to whom would we go?  you have the words of eternal life."
  
My dear Lord, I depend wholly upon thee, wean me from all other dependences.  Thou art my all, thou dost overrule all and delight in me.  Thou are the foundation of goodness....(Valley of Vision)

Linking to Ann today.